My Motorcycle Never Rolled.

I try to hold an ideal in my mind of how I'd like things to be going, while attempting to bend circumstances in the direction of my ideal, in a Zen-like fashion. Every year at the onset, I feel fairly confident/hopeful that this will be the year that things fall in line, and I will be able to touch the satisfaction of what I perceive to be a fulfilling existence. "A fulfilling existence" in my mind consists of a certain criteria being met along specific points on a time-line, then expanded upon. It also relies heavily on the prevalence of a particular kind of euphoria generated by that criteria being met and expanded upon. Like every other year, I had high hopes for 2010. Among other things, I had hoped to spend a greater amount of time in the woods alone, or laying in a field in the sunshine. More skating, swimming and some bicycling goes without saying, along with more training for Mr. Zigs and myself, and some Agility trials, and of course like every other year, I wanted to get my motor bike on the road. My bike needs some attention before it can be ridden, but not much. Like many of the recent years, none of those things happened in 2010. Summer was stolen by October, and sacrificed to xmas. I did accomplish some things. I had my two paintings ready for the Canfield fair, as well as the literature that went with them. I created about a dozen bonsai trees, had a fairly successful garden, and made several batches of wine. I also tried for a fistful of art opportunities, ie; grants, awards, shows, a residency. I was accepted for a show and dumped for another, dumped for the residency, and am still hopeful for the grant. I spent a fair amount of time, and effort trying to meet deadlines. I'll be carrying all the same hopes into '11, while attempting to refine my game. Additionally I have several paintings in mind that I'd like to execute. Along with the ones I have in mind, I'd also like to acquire some new inspiration. I wish I had the sort of camera that would take particularly high quality photos, and the knowledge of how to use it. I only want to execute very high quality paintings based on my own photos/inspirations. I really want to do some, "Gothic" paintings, and stick my toe back in the pond of surrealism. I have had a series of, "Mini-sculptures" floating around my brain for quite some time now, and I always want to feel caught up on my jewelry, and am really hoping to get a pair of glasses that I can see out of. Every year passes quicker like the frequency of a rubber ball bouncing ever more rapidly until it comes to rest. I look in the mirror, and at the faces of friends and family, and wonder how we found ourselves in this far-flung future. the time to make the best of it is now, because tomorrow they'll be lowering us into the grave. Happy New year!

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